For the last few years I've really started to explore. Maybe because I've been getting more curious...about myself...and also what's outside of my self. I go on trips now, and these trips I go on are just for me. I'm usually on my own, by design. I treasure these days and moments with myself, wherever they may be.
I find that when I'm solo, my mind has a chance to be quiet, and when I actually find stillness, I find the best little nuggets of wisdom that end up changing my life.
At first, I was nervous honestly - it takes courage I didn't know about to go and be by myself - what will come up? But over these last years, I learned that what I uncover on these trips only and ever make me better somehow. Perhaps more importantly, I have learned to seriously love my own company - I really do. If you happen to run into me on one of these trips, you'll find me singing to myself, laughing out loud, getting lost down winding...
Here we are, a few weeks into January in this beautiful new year and I'm wondering how everyone else is doing with their resolutions.
Are some of you going hard and staying strong in your resolve? Are others already moving past their January 1 goals? Perhaps some of you opted out of the resolution thing altogether this year (a completely reasonable thing to do)
One thing I've noticed this week is that the gym is CRAZY busy! And people are serious about their workouts! As with most years, by mid-February or March, things will settle a bit. People will move on, make other choices, give up.
Each year I wonder, why do people really do that? The same people who will come in full force and make sure their yoga mat is front. and. center. are many times the same people who in a matter of weeks will stop showing up.
Now don't get me wrong, I think change can be an excellent thing. It's a reality of life and can bring about...
Whether it's swimming or snowboarding, half-pipe or hurdles, there's just something about the camaraderie and uplifting nature of the Olympic games that makes me feel so hopeful and happy. Ya know?
Sure, there are disappointments and setbacks, and the pressure is absolutely ON for these athletes, but there are stories of struggle and triumph that are inspiring...and that's just what I think we all need right about now.
One of the reasons I think the Games resonate with me so much is because (for the most part), it reminds me that in a world where you can pay for followers, filter your face and watch so much negativity surround you - they represent the way it "should be".
What I mean is that if you focus, dedicate yourself and work hard to become the very best version of yourself you can be, you can indeed be rewarded. But there are no guarantees or short-cuts on that path. There are years before a glimmer of payoff is seen. No instant gratification....
This isn't the first time someone has said "enough". Sadly, it may not be the last. But here we are again.
I usually don't chime in too much on political or otherwise charged issues - though those who know me know I've got an opinion for sure!
And I know that when things outside of us become overwhelming, the knee-jerk response may be to act outwards - to fix - to change - to perhaps get angry - and just say, "enough is enough is enough already". I'm not saying those aren't all valid and sometimes very helpful responses. Certainly, I have found myself feeling all of those things at various times throughout my life, and especially have been challenged with them recently.
But immediately I shift focus, and know that even if outside happenings and circumstances are maddening, I must look inside to not only handle my feelings, but also react responsibly and get to a place where I can contribute in a positive way.
Today the song "Man in...
I'll level with you. It was just this past year that I was most recently scolded by my mother. Folks, I'm in my 30's. Tough love. Sometimes though, we just need a reminder from those who know and love us.
You may be asking: 'And what the heck did you do?!' Well. I'll tell you.
I'm the kind of person who wants to help in any way I can, every way I can. I say 'yes' too much (though I'm getting way better at that), and believe in the benefit of the doubt, and want to embrace second chances. This particular time though, I said 'yes' without fully considering the consequences I would take on.
Now sure, sometimes you do a thing just for the simple reason of being self-less, and it's important to be of service. But this wasn't that - this was me putting myself in an unhealthy situation for the benefit of the "what if". I did it because I was curious; because I wanted to believe things could be different this time....